I had a plan. I'd use the herbs Alfyn told me about to induce drowsiness. Then, before the night got too late, I'd seal myself in a coffin. My confidant would then tie the rope around the coffin to ensure I couldn't get out by myself.
I thought that if I did that, I wouldn't be a threat to anyone.
[ sipp in chat: wait who invited camille me: (pretends not to see) ]
... The problem with the plan was that it was my plan. The monster doesn't suddenly take control at night. It's always there. If you tell it your plan, it will simply sabotage it.
... I don't know. I'm afraid of dying. It's why I've held out this long. But Camille died and was able to come back... and yet, I don't know if that will work again. And if you try to kill me, the monster will defend itself. I'm afraid of that.
The other option is to lock me up overnight... but without telling me where or how beforehand.
The problem with the Camille route too is that.... we don't have any guarantee that she can't get re-afflicted. Or she could get murdered. The last thing I want is for you to go through that, and then have one of those things happen.
You don't want to die, though, right? No matter what, you want to stay?
That's what I thought. I don't know anymore. What's... possible, or what's right.
[ she rubs at her face while we're in this sooty hug. the hat that's been hanging loosely over her head finally gets knocked to the ground. with all of the smoke and shadow, it's not very easy to make out what's different, but... something is. on her head. ]
You've been a good friend, and I've been a terrible one to you. If I can, I want to stay with you. I know that's very selfish.
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... Yeah. Yeah they did.
[ looking into kate's eyes...... jk it's just darkness ]
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Oh... that's good.
[ it must be, right? and yet.
she will come over to see which stack is hers. ]
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[ it seems like yuffie organized some already. she hands kate a handful of hers! ]
I saw some of yours, Kate. [ she's never been one to beat around the bush.. as kate knows ] So I know.
1/2
there's a bit of a cold feeling... ]
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... Oh.
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[ yeahhhhhhh ]
[ yuffie takes a deep breath, then... reaches out for her hand. there's no anger, though her emotions are very, very numb ]
What do you want me to do, Kate?
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[ she stares at the hand. terror, bewilderment, hope, guilt, all of it rises up in an instant. ]
I wanted to tell you. I'm... I'm sorry.
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[ there's definitely matches guilt. not fear, not anger. sadness. pain. lots of pain. still holding out her hand ]
I should have seen it earlier. You were trying to tell me. Stupid Yuffie, stupid.... [ her voice breaks off near the end ]
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... I was only thinking of myself. [ her voice wavers. ] I hid like a coward, and tried to fix things on my own, and failed at every turn.
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Dummy. It's not like you could have just come out and say it.
[ she assumes, anyway. ]
I'm in the loop now. So we need to figure out what to do next.
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... I don't know what to do. It keeps getting worse. I... I need help.
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Did you try the rope on yourself?
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I had a plan. I'd use the herbs Alfyn told me about to induce drowsiness. Then, before the night got too late, I'd seal myself in a coffin. My confidant would then tie the rope around the coffin to ensure I couldn't get out by myself.
I thought that if I did that, I wouldn't be a threat to anyone.
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[ to coffin her.... help ]
I guess you must have busted out.
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[ sipp in chat: wait who invited camille
me: (pretends not to see) ]
... The problem with the plan was that it was my plan. The monster doesn't suddenly take control at night. It's always there. If you tell it your plan, it will simply sabotage it.
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... Yeah, I know.
[ her stupid glitter plan tch still feels like garbo ]
But you need help. You'll get it. We have... a couple of options. But I want to know what you want to do, Kate.
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[ soft. ]
... I don't know. I'm afraid of dying. It's why I've held out this long. But Camille died and was able to come back... and yet, I don't know if that will work again. And if you try to kill me, the monster will defend itself. I'm afraid of that.
The other option is to lock me up overnight... but without telling me where or how beforehand.
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The problem with the Camille route too is that.... we don't have any guarantee that she can't get re-afflicted. Or she could get murdered. The last thing I want is for you to go through that, and then have one of those things happen.
You don't want to die, though, right? No matter what, you want to stay?
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That's what I thought. I don't know anymore. What's... possible, or what's right.
[ she rubs at her face while we're in this sooty hug. the hat that's been hanging loosely over her head finally gets knocked to the ground. with all of the smoke and shadow, it's not very easy to make out what's different, but... something is. on her head. ]
You've been a good friend, and I've been a terrible one to you. If I can, I want to stay with you. I know that's very selfish.
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Anything is possible here, and... nothing is right. That's what I've learned. We just... keep going. Like always. Three more weeks.
[ at least now yuffie knows ]
Yeah? Well, that's cool with me, Kate. I want you to stay too. Really want you to stay. I'm really tired of being left behind.
[ and let's be real cloud has insane brain problems and vincent is possessed. it's not that different ]
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Yuffie...
[ somewhere in that abyss of dark, miserable emotions, there's a feeling of warmth. ]
I'll try. To stay here, and to be a better friend.
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Good. Stay. And you owe me so much materia for this!
[ joking to try to break the tension. badly. ]
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You'd better!
[ vibe is affection and warmth though ]