[he reaches up to touch his head like he's about to pull off his headband, before remembering that he's not wearing it. his head feels like it's stuffed with cotton, slow and syrupy.]
No... I think that was Robin, too. Or... whoever it was, it wasn't me that time.
[ the tense yet calm tone she's been using wavers here, and she presses a palm to her face. ]
... Everyone kept saying that dying is the only way to stop it, but I didn't want to believe it. I thought I could stay in control... or if I couldn't, that I could just lock myself up on Thursday and no one would get hurt.
he tries to muster the anger. and maybe he will, at another time. but all he can think of now is the exhaustion, and know that none of it can compare to kate's. big difference between not knowing when you'll live or die, and knowing that the only way to live is...
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Talk to 'em. You're still here, so you should.
[it comes out bitter, even though he knows it's not fair, and he always tries to be fair, but.
he reaches into his pocket and pulls out his scarf, and then drapes it over kate's horns.]
[even if there are less people around now, but still. he looks at the scarf on kate, thinks of lending it to her during that silly retail event, thinks of how it looked on kanda, and he swallows hard.]
You're taking a risk just by telling me. And I can't even feel grateful for it.
[...but he wanted to know. he wanted to know so desperately. to make up for not finding it himself.]
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...Were you Camille's partner?
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Does it happen every week?
[Laudna and Yuffie said that Tomi was Robin. Rondo too, but...?]
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[ the tense yet calm tone she's been using wavers here, and she presses a palm to her face. ]
... Everyone kept saying that dying is the only way to stop it, but I didn't want to believe it. I thought I could stay in control... or if I couldn't, that I could just lock myself up on Thursday and no one would get hurt.
[ I was wrong. They were right.
Kanda was right. ]
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but when he speaks, his voice is calm]
...Do the Overseers know?
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[ But I don't know if I can face them now... ]
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he tries to muster the anger. and maybe he will, at another time. but all he can think of now is the exhaustion, and know that none of it can compare to kate's. big difference between not knowing when you'll live or die, and knowing that the only way to live is...
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Talk to 'em. You're still here, so you should.
[it comes out bitter, even though he knows it's not fair, and he always tries to be fair, but.
he reaches into his pocket and pulls out his scarf, and then drapes it over kate's horns.]
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but then he puts his scarf on her, and she looks up in surprise. ]
... Lavi?
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[even if there are less people around now, but still. he looks at the scarf on kate, thinks of lending it to her during that silly retail event, thinks of how it looked on kanda, and he swallows hard.]
You're taking a risk just by telling me. And I can't even feel grateful for it.
[...but he wanted to know. he wanted to know so desperately. to make up for not finding it himself.]
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All of this happened because I was too selfish to take such a risk before now.
[ maybe she was the bad kind of fairy, after all. maybe she always was. ]
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[...]
Can you tell me what happened?
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That night with Kanda, do you mean?
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I believe you all managed to put together most of the events.
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Can you tell me about your wish?
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[ Even if I'll surely die here... if I can do that, then it won't be without meaning.
... The children...? ]
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Can you tell me about 'em?
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... I can't remember their names or faces.
[ Why...? ]
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-- Just now? [Is it a curse? Power?] Have you been in the swamp?
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... Yes.
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The effects are too unpredictable, so I didn't heal myself until after the trial.
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[Yuu didn't remember either... But when I talked about 'em, he did.]
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It should just be temporary, then? Thank goodness...
They're all very important to me. That much, I can remember clearly.
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