[ she tenses her hands and takes a breath to steel herself, then leans back and pulls the hood back, letting it fall away from her head. there's a cloud of smoke that rises with it, and when it thins out enough, lavi can make out the shape of something that wasn't there before.
[Lavi looks at Kate as she breathes and leans back and reaches up to touch her hood, every motion hazy and slow like a dream -- like he's seeing it all from someone else's eye. His? Bookman's? His gaze follows the smoke, up and up into the air, then down to the horns on her head.
...
He cannot comprehend them. He doesn't want the pieces to slot into place. He can only look at Kate with the only eye he has and commit this all to memory. The moment of knowing. But -- only two -- then...]
[he reaches up to touch his head like he's about to pull off his headband, before remembering that he's not wearing it. his head feels like it's stuffed with cotton, slow and syrupy.]
No... I think that was Robin, too. Or... whoever it was, it wasn't me that time.
[ the tense yet calm tone she's been using wavers here, and she presses a palm to her face. ]
... Everyone kept saying that dying is the only way to stop it, but I didn't want to believe it. I thought I could stay in control... or if I couldn't, that I could just lock myself up on Thursday and no one would get hurt.
he tries to muster the anger. and maybe he will, at another time. but all he can think of now is the exhaustion, and know that none of it can compare to kate's. big difference between not knowing when you'll live or die, and knowing that the only way to live is...
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Talk to 'em. You're still here, so you should.
[it comes out bitter, even though he knows it's not fair, and he always tries to be fair, but.
he reaches into his pocket and pulls out his scarf, and then drapes it over kate's horns.]
[even if there are less people around now, but still. he looks at the scarf on kate, thinks of lending it to her during that silly retail event, thinks of how it looked on kanda, and he swallows hard.]
You're taking a risk just by telling me. And I can't even feel grateful for it.
[...but he wanted to know. he wanted to know so desperately. to make up for not finding it himself.]
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I want to know who killed Yuu.
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To risk my life for something that's already happened?
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What will you do when you find this person?
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But I won't kill them. I just need to know.
[I can't keep doing this. I can't keep suspecting everyone. I...]
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I don't think you need a wish for that.
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Very well. Then I'll give you your wish.
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a pair of horns. ]
... I can't keep doing this, either.
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...
He cannot comprehend them. He doesn't want the pieces to slot into place. He can only look at Kate with the only eye he has and commit this all to memory. The moment of knowing. But -- only two -- then...]
Since when?
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...Were you Camille's partner?
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Does it happen every week?
[Laudna and Yuffie said that Tomi was Robin. Rondo too, but...?]
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[ the tense yet calm tone she's been using wavers here, and she presses a palm to her face. ]
... Everyone kept saying that dying is the only way to stop it, but I didn't want to believe it. I thought I could stay in control... or if I couldn't, that I could just lock myself up on Thursday and no one would get hurt.
[ I was wrong. They were right.
Kanda was right. ]
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but when he speaks, his voice is calm]
...Do the Overseers know?
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[ But I don't know if I can face them now... ]
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he tries to muster the anger. and maybe he will, at another time. but all he can think of now is the exhaustion, and know that none of it can compare to kate's. big difference between not knowing when you'll live or die, and knowing that the only way to live is...
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Talk to 'em. You're still here, so you should.
[it comes out bitter, even though he knows it's not fair, and he always tries to be fair, but.
he reaches into his pocket and pulls out his scarf, and then drapes it over kate's horns.]
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but then he puts his scarf on her, and she looks up in surprise. ]
... Lavi?
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[even if there are less people around now, but still. he looks at the scarf on kate, thinks of lending it to her during that silly retail event, thinks of how it looked on kanda, and he swallows hard.]
You're taking a risk just by telling me. And I can't even feel grateful for it.
[...but he wanted to know. he wanted to know so desperately. to make up for not finding it himself.]
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All of this happened because I was too selfish to take such a risk before now.
[ maybe she was the bad kind of fairy, after all. maybe she always was. ]
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Can you tell me what happened?
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That night with Kanda, do you mean?
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I believe you all managed to put together most of the events.
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